So, long time no blog, I haven’t been too busy or been overdoing the socialising thing so have no real excuse. I have to be honest, much like Ed in the photo, I was a reluctant participant in the recent holiday festivities, in any activities really – hence no blog posts. So here I am brushing off the cobwebs and trying to get back into the swing of things much like everyone else at this time of year.
I think that the holidays are particularly difficult with MS. I had a lot to deal with at the end of 2018 – relapse, new lesions and new mobility restrictions to mention a few. I’m not looking for sympathy here that’s just how it was/is. Taking all that into account my mood and motivation were understandably quite low (still are to be honest). Preparations for Christmas and New Year just seemed frivolous, tiring and kind of pointless. A lot of effort for one day. Bah humbug and all that.
That’s where the internal struggle came in. I didn’t want to feel that way or bring my loved ones down. I wanted to give thoughtful gifts, be caring and considerate but it all felt like too much of a struggle. In spite of all this I think I did ok, I had a good time and don’t think I bummed anyone out. So how did I manage it in the end?
- Delegate, delegate, delegate – I passed off tasks to willing parties whenever possible, for example my husband put up and decorated the tree, I’m very proud of him!
- Shop online – crowded shops and malls are no place for a grumpy person struggling to get around with a rollator
- Shop earlier/later in the day – I actually started my shopping too late for the internet to save me as nothing would be delivered on time. I was therefore forced to enter the dreaded malls but kept to times when shops were just opening or closing so I mostly avoided the hustle and bustle.
- Stop stressing about presents – people who care about me know my struggles and understand I won’t be treading the streets looking for the perfect gift. Besides people rarely complain when given a gift, not to your face anyway, so why stress!
- Pre prepared food – my mum looked after the turkey and I ordered everything else premade from a supermarket. We only had to keep track of the timings of what went in the oven when and Christmas dinner was sorted. Very tasty too!
My final thoughts are on how I handle New Year. It is just a night like any other. If going out among the hordes to ring in the new year is your thing then more power to you. Personally I hate new year’s eve. Again too much effort for one night. I stayed home and watched a movie but that isn’t the problem. It’s all the talk of resolutions and plans for the next year that get me. MS makes planning a day ahead difficult never mind the coming year. If I’m not careful this time of year can bring a lot of negative thoughts about the restrictions and concessions I have because of MS. What could have been, what will never be and how bad can it get… Misery lies down this road so this year I have chosen to focus on what I am grateful for.
- Mostly I am grateful for the people in my life – family, friends and the hubbie. They make me smile and keep me going. I won’t name names, you know who you are – you guys rock!!
- My hospital care team. I know it is not the case for a lot of people but I really do like them and believe they have my back – keep up the good work guys
- Music and concerts – I’ve been to 2 concerts this year that were brilliant and reminded me how much I love some bands
- I love board games – a hobby that can be done while seated – awesome!
- I better say Ed (the cat) since I use him to illustrate my moods and blogs
I don’t believe in new years resolutions but I do plan to continue to put my efforts into focusing on the good things in my life.